The new Krissy 08'/09'

Hello All,

It has been awhile. But I haven't really had much to talk about either. This weekend was interesting. Friday, I was in a SOUR mood (just ask my dear sister who had to console me about it). Sometimes I have a tendency to wallow in my "situation", whatever it may be. Topics that can get me VERY upset leading to said counseling sesh with sister include:

1) Job

2) Friends
3) Missing friends
4) Catty fights with friends
5) My weight/body image ISSUES. And man do I have them. ("Buzz your girlfriend...Woooooof")
6) Dilemmas with future
7) Being single, with apparently LOTS of non-single friends now (although Saturday I was affirmed that there are still a few left!)

So, back to Friday. I had a meltdown because I was home. On a Friday night. Nothing to do but try desperately to watch Grey's Anatomy online. But, alas, having a 6 year old Dell came to bite me. It would NOT PLAY. DELL would CRASH every single time. Commence real tears over this. It was more of a build up of frustration and loneliness than anything. All I really wanted was to be in Alabama watching it in my sisters bed with my little four legged niece and nephew. URGH! And as I was spilling tears over this situation, every other situation that was bothering me came out with it. I was sad because I was alone. I was sad because I feel like I have been working so hard at the gym and trying to eat as healthy as possible without any results to show for it. I was sad that I am again, trying to uproot my life and find fulfillment in SOMETHING (i.e. all of the school searching). I got myself completely worked up unnecessarily.

Sister went into ACTION let me tell you. I bet you she was just fed up with my antics to be honest. Regardless here is the plan we are calling, "The New Krissy 08'/09'":

1) Examine my eating habits and consult with nutritionist friend for advice.

2) Find more single friends... Small group through church, volunteer groups, etc.

3) Write down five good things about my day everyday.

She wants me to start appreciating the "now". I am a true dreamer. If things aren't happening as they happen in my dreams....I take action to change that. Or find a new dream to seek after. However, this is leaving me quite unhappy and unfulfilled with my life.

I am determined to change this.

5 GREAT things about my weekend:

*Sleeping in*

*Shopping and lunch with my mom*

*SALSA dancing on Saturday night*

*Nice, but heart pumping hike with my marrieds*

*Family dinner finished off by core warming apple cider with my marrieds*

Ahhh.... I feel my mood lifting higher already

Auf Wiedersehen

Headed to Leavenworth to drink beer and eat brats with my friends at Oktoberfest!

Have a great weekend everyone...

Auf Weidersehen!

JOULES!

I am seriously SO GITTY I cannot even begin to explain it. It is similar to this:

The reason for my over-stimulation in AWESOMENESS?

The British call it Joules. It is a store so suited for me it is crazy and I couldn't help but clap my hands in a fit of joy when I saw all of the beautiful clothes.

But the obvious issue with this, is that,

(A) The clothes are in Britain + (B) The American economy is FILTHY = (C) The clothes are twice as expensive.

BUT JUST LOOOOOOOOOOOOK

New Title

I noticed in the last couple months that there are well, A LOT of blogs having to do with all things preppy. And I love it somuchsomuchSOMUCH! However, I want to set my blog apart a little bit. The title, "Very Becoming", actually comes from something my mom has said to me. If ever I do anything inappropriate (who me? NEVAH!), she jokingly says, "Krissy, that is VERY unbecoming of you".

So this is my blog that is for all things that ARE becoming of me.

ENJOY!

Defeated

Do you ever have one of those days where you just feel.... deflated? Like the balloon of promise about something that has been lifting you up for awhile, keeping you high above the drabness of your life just got popped. Ohhhh, that's me.

I have been researching going back to school for a few months now. I have it narrowed down to a couple of schools in New York and one in Boston.

New York School of Interior Design

Pratt Institute

Boston Architectural College

I am going out there in November and have been VERY excited about it. I can't stop thinking about the "endless" opportunities that a degree would offer me or give me a head start on. The knowledge and experience that an actual education in design would offer me. I have been wanting an adventure for the last year or so (please refer to THIS post). Wouldn't New York just be amazing to experience?? Or Boston even? I can imagine going to all these cool classes learning about colors, and drafting, and furniture and LAWD that just gets me all revved up!

Currently I work for a yacht building company and am an Interior Design Assistant. Obviously, this sounds like a great job. And, trust me, IT IS. Very cool working environment, great pay, "possibilities". However, for the last 5 months I have just been so bored. Not the whole time, but a lot of it. Because of my lack of actual experience and knowledge in design, I am left to run errands, return samples, write up select orders and general administrative duties. You know, like an assistant would do (I understand that this is my job and also that everyone needs to start somewhere). But despite that I am feeling really unchallenged and wanting more, still. I know for a fact that design is a passion of mine and I think I would be REALLY good at it given the opportunity. How do I get this opportunity other than going to school and proving that I CAN?

Coming back down now. Reasons that were brought to my attention (I had previously been just ignoring them or assuming that they would just you know... "work out")

1. MONEY. Hello, school costs a boat load, so does living in NY.... can I actually afford this? Probably not.

2. Friends. I have a pretty cool group of friends. I like them. We do fun and cliche stuff like trips to the pumpkin patch, preppy beach weekends, picnics in the park, etc. I love it. Why would I leave that???

3. Leaving a great job that I already have in a poor economy that has "potential" for advancement. Its true, so why would I leave?

4. Family. They are an hour away. No more going home for weekends. No more breakfasts with dad. Trips home would be more selective and infinitely more expensive.

5. Starting over. Completely. I mean, new degree, new city, new friends, new job, new finances, EV-ER-Y-THING. Completely different. I hate change.... why do I always bring it on myself.

I was you know... crying in the bathroom about the whole thing. Just felt a lot of self-doubt and worry and frustration. I was at work though so I got myself back together and went back to my desk and had a very reassuring convo with my good friend, we'll call her "J". She is currently going back to school for counseling and had these insights to give me. It instantly made me feel better: This was the gist of our conversation....

Me: I feel defeated...

J: Well here is a kinda pep talk. YES you know there are factors that make school hard. You figured out that without people telling you (etc rent, tuition, not knowing people), BUT, if it is a desire of yours, you take the bad with the good. What you need to do is (aside from what others say) sit down and figure out your pros and cons of going. After looking at them on paper...decide if YOU think its worth it. The other way you will get an answer is whether God opens/closes doors..ie. you get accepted to the school/are able to find housing etc. Sometimes he works through those scenarios to direct us to where we are supposed to go so be prayerful about it. I mean, we all want our friends opinions on things...but ultimately..you know yourself, your personality, desires better than any outsider.

She is right. She made me feel much better and reminded me to lay this one in God's hands. If it works out, it works out. If not...I still have the job I am at and life goes on.

more animals

Fall is my favorite season

You heard me. Fall is my favorite season. I am more gitty about it than spring or summer. Something about the air just makes me want to take a deep breath and savor it. Personally, I think that Fall and Winter are the most romantic seasons of the year. Maybe it is the cold factor and the need to be close to people. Or maybe because it is a time of traditions. And there is no better way to practice traditions than with someone special to you.

Here are just a few of my favorite things about Fall....

1. Cool days when the sun is out. Similar to that feeling of being warm in your bed but having the window open and your face feel cool. So soothing and cozy.

2. Fall leaves. So cliche but just.... LOOK at how beautiful this Seattle street is.

Photos courtesy of this site. Thanks!

3. Pumpkin. Spice. Latte.

4. Speaking of pumpkins.... I love fall for pumpkin patches!

Picture taken by my friend at our 2007 Pumpkin Patch Day

5. The changing of the wardrobes. All of my summer dresses, tanks, shorts.... go into storage and out come my winter coats, sweaters, and warm shoes. Here are a couple of sweaters I have been thinking about, but won't get because (single fist pump to the sky) I AM ON A BUDGET!

J.Crew.com

6. Holiday Movies. Here are my favorites:

7. The anticipation of winter coming. I love planning trips home, Christmas shopping lists, and seeing the ballet (The Nutcracker) at the Pacific Northwest Ballet with my grandmother. I love getting excited when I hear it is going to snow and anxiously looking outside to see if it is. I love planning ski trips with friends and the exhaustion felt after a good day on the slopes.

Classy Animal Art

I was browsing the 1st Dibs art section recently and noticed a pattern in what I was drawn to at the moment. Antique paintings of animals. Here were some of my favorites.

A Fine English Painting by Richards of ShiptonEnglish

Mid-nineteenth Century

G. Sergeant Antiques L.L.C

A Fine Whippet Portrait

English School

19th Century G. Sergeant Antiques L.L.C.

Antique painting of English hunting dog, signed Bailley

England, circa 1889

Floxglove Antiques

FOLK PORTRAIT OF A BULL, SIGNED L.D.D., 1885

American

Jeff R. Bridgman American Antiques